Have you ever heard or saw something that seemed OK for the first few moments but something inside you warns you that something is off but you just let it pass by uncommented?

Today I heard somebody talking about emotions and that we should not control / alter the way we feel because it would be untrue to our hearts.  Most people ”specially romantic people that put allot of thought in that kind of stuff“ without much thought or hesitation would tend to agree with this statement. At that time, I didn’t comment in agreement or disagreement because I simply wasn’t comfortable yet I had no good reason to object.

Several hours later in the evening after completely forgetting about the whole thing I felt God leading me back to that statement giving me a vision of 2 horses; a race horse and a wild horse. I heard God in my heart asking me, which one in this situation would you rather be? A wild horse or a race horse??

For some reason his voice was clear…a race horse!…..because a race horse reaches his destination, has a goal, is focused, is dedicated, and allocates every muscle and thought to winning the race. On the other hand, a wild horse is confused, random, is not guaranteed to reach anywhere and will most likely cause his rider to fall!

How does this relate to controlling how we feel? I believe we can still be open and pour out our hearts while being true if we control which direction it sprints, just like a race horse after being trained.

Some would argue that not knowing where you end could be adventurous and fun. I say if I know that I’m a winner I can put in my all and enjoy the adventure along the way with the guarantee of winning.

Choose to travel a road that you are called to, do not a settle for a random road, it’s a waste of time!

Today on my way to work on the high way in the car my CD player was screaming Darlene Zschech’s version of Agnus Dei.
If you want a song that can remind you how truely holy and worthy is the God we worship, this is it!
It’s December 30th, so I was reflecting on this past year, trying to think what I needed to work on in 2009. Of course with a song like that playing I 
couldn’t help but envision me changing the world in 2009 and thinking it was as easy as listening to a good song and just dreaming & believing it was that simple!

All that was just great, until some car just totally cut me off & I had to slam my breaks driving 70mph barely rescuing my front left fenders from
being crushed….

…It’s SCARY how fast everything that was going on inside me just evaporated, disappeared, just vanished!
The only thought I can think of is that I needed to catch up with that car. I would then give them this scary
look making myself look as mean as possible! Get them to think they just cut off the scariest serial killer in town! My look would then
penetrate their hearts and mind and make them repent and drive safely for the rest of my life…

As I was reaching to my gearstick to start downshifting to catch up I suddenly came to this realization…How lame did I think my God is!
My heart is so divided, I am so weak & helpless to think I am ready to change the world when I can hardly commit to spending some quality time with God when I’m “in the mood” driven by a good song playing.

I realized that in order to get to a point where I can live up to His expectations I need to do much more than just listen to some good music! I started praying protection from being just another lame ad-hoc Christian that lives an illusion of living in passion. The idea scares me!
I pray for a consistant true rock-solid passion that truely can change the world.

Here is another thought that Ben’s recent talk made me realize…

If a good friend comes to you and requested to borrow some money for something crutial and then he/she return the money before the time they promised …. wouldn’t you trust them when they come back and request something else?? It’s that simple…You trust their word, because they proved it to you!

So if you believe that Jesus came, suffered, died, LOVED, cared enough to come once for you…why is it hard to belive that he will come again? Isn’t that common sense … It’s not just His word (which is more than enough) that He will come again but He also proved it by coming the first time……

This is what’s been going on in my head recently….feels like an ocean of thoughts & ideas in my head. Been talking for a while about having the discipline to make it a habit to engage more….Engage what? Myself, my thoughts…my God!

Recently I was talking to my brother about how much time in life with no passion & no fruits! I keep thinking & hoping for things to change but I forget that I need to induce that…need to jump start it somehow…I trust God to lead it…to nurture it…

I feel that my greatest weakness lies within the separated thoughts and split mind/ideas that live within me…..when I am able to control and submit all that together….then is when I think GOD’s plan in my life will start to unfold..

Ahh..another post with no sense except to myself!!! I need to work on that..practice…..

“You’ve been more than a friend of me…..fight off my enemies…you spoken truth over my life….”….Christy Nockels

I was out on a dinner date with my wife the other night and stopped by that AWESOME little pie place in the woodlands, TX called pie town.

I got a chance to chat a little with the owner, Debra. Very nice lady that’s got an amazing talent in baking the best pies. The cool thing is that it’s not just pies they make, they also have a lunch & dinner menu.

You owe it to yourself to check it out if you happen to be in the area!

Vacationing for 3 days in Nicaragua, its great, a bit scary (more later), but nice, Can´t upload any photos yet but will do shortly when im back in the states.

Wait for the details later ..

-Ash

Just found out about xobni. Seems very promising. Anybody knows a good tool (hopefully free) to fight spam on outlook?

It’s still early on a Friday morning, been up since 4:15.. I just can’t sleep.. I’m sitting here listening to the heavy rain & KSBJ on the radio and thinking about the upcoming few days.

The words that’s been stuck in my head the past few days is LIVING IN PASSION…. What it takes, How do you get there, How to actually embrace that phase of life you’re at and make the most out of it…with no future regrets..

What do I want to do while I’m alive? I think, whatever it is; I want to do it passionately….I believe that passion is what drives strength…in and around us…

People talk about making a difference but unfortunately many have lives have been wasted. I believe God uses us in small ways and as we prove ourselves we are trusted for more…

In whatever I’m doing, I do not want God to say this about me…

I want to be a man that stands in a gap for others…I believe thats how you make a difference..

Sun is breaking through the dark clouds & I have to go jump in the shower to get ready for work but I invite you to Live on a mission…mine is to To know Him and Make Him Known and let His dreams be a reality in my life.

-Ash

Hello!

Checkout www.love2trade.com, It is my latest project that I am working on!

Recently I was introduced to the work of Lauren Zaffos, the wife of one of my very good friends Peter Zaffos.

She is very talented, If you are in looking to get some quality photos taken….I highly recommend her.

Both Peter & Lauren have a passion for the organization Hope for Honduras,